AWARENESS OF ‘BEING’
UNDERSTANDING VIVEKA...
UNDERSTANDING VIVEKA...
Meditator (to Guruji): This is my
third Advance Meditation Course. One and half year back I had come. First time
when I came here, I got a one sentence like a magic sentence – everything is
okay. And I took it – everything is okay. I went buzzer on it. Everything is
okay. I started like all negative things. I started gambling. I started
boozing. I started all the wrong things. I started avoiding my home life, my
parents, and my personal friends. One thing – just go anywhere, go buzzer,
everything is okay. Within one year I think I lost my whole 12 years work; working,
savings, all in one year. i.e. about more than Rs. 5-6 lakhs, just gambling.
Last month I was here and till today I have saved Rs.40, 000/- by not playing
gambling. One and a half, last 5th of the last month I was here,
today is 10th. So one month five days. I think I saved at least
Rs.30,000 to Rs.40,000/- According to me everyday what I used to loose and
everyday what I earn from my work life and plus my personal saving also. I
could not work. Till 2-o-clock I used to go to my factory in afternoon and used
to go out by 6.00 p.m. Let us go to gymkhana, let us go to race course, and let’s
go to anywhere. Now this magic sentence, I am taking it you know, other way
again positive way. So even like I don’t have a real meaning of it, ‘everything
is okay’ means you should realize what you are doing. Then you can do anything.
Not that whatever you are doing is okay, but you are simply aware of it and
doing everything. Whatever you are doing, for eg. I started practicing this
like I should be aware if I am going to gamble. If I am aware, I won’t go. ‘I
won’t go’ -that I realized in this last, I think, 20-25 days and let’s see how
long I will continue. Booze was at least, I don’t booze much now. I cut down my
boozing, cut down my cigarettes, but gambling totally stopped and on the other
side, going on the right track, aware of it now. Whatever I am doing is – I am
still smoking, but I am aware. Like it’s not that because people say it is
harmful for any human being but I can take it, so I am taking it. I know. I am
aware of it. Even boozing I can take it. I am aware of it. The day I can’t take
it, I will stop. Why should I stop now? That is my logic. I can afford to take
at least those things I can afford to have. I enjoy it, I take it. And I am
aware of it also.
Guruji: You see, it is an interesting turn that is taking
place. Now he has understood not only ‘everything is okay’ for what has
happened in the past but ‘everything is okay’ being applicable right now. And
being aware of it, it really brings better transformation. Being aware of
exactly how we are, what we are doing and being with it fully, automatically
changes the things. Now e.g. he said- I still know this is not good for health
and still I am doing it. I am able to take it, I am taking it. See when the real
understanding dawns, it is called viveka. See there are people who can take
anything and nothing affects them. Then it is perfectly alright for them, you
understand? For Shankara, he was going on the road and then he took some
intoxicant or some kind. Then all his shishyas said ahah, look at our guru, he
is taking all these intoxicants. Then there was somebody little bit ahead.
Somebody was pouring iron, you know, hot iron into the cast. He also asked him to
give him some, because he could drink it. He was able to drink that also. See
this viveka; if you do some unnecessary scruples about it, then you will get
into problems. See knowing where your body is, knowing where you are, if you
take, it will affect you. You may reach a stage where nothing affects you but
until we get that point-
